I found the paper folded brown edges
In a box that i thought held old pictures
Evidence that i was too lazy to die young
Pinched into the spaces
Where the memories get clouded by the sadness
And abuse
I found the paper and i hadn’t thought about you
In ten years except for when I’m drinking
And the edges seemed as fragile as your hands
Covered the last time i held them
For the best interest
of all persons involved
I found the paper smelled like cigarettes
Patchouli cedar dust and winter breath
The words themselves didn’t hurt my heart
But the fact that i forgot
Their composition
-Stephen M Crow
10/6 in this style
Somebody Else’s News
The newspaper said this is the saddest
Sunday of all time
Eyes focused you read with the squiggle pinched
Between your eyes. The newspaper
Was a dagger to the digital age
Providing a few precious moments in bed
Not illuminated by the screens
Of our phones. Or the barrage
Of noises humming from the television
...So silently we stay
...And play a game
Where the newspaper knows we’re over
And we can face it from a distance
Like somebody else’s news.
Stephen M Crow
10/6 in this style
You Have Only Killed a Man
By the time the bullets pierce
My thorax
And I drown on my own blood
You have only killed a man
When the crowd draws close
Their mouths empty for words
Crying at the scene
You have only killed a man
When my death is pronounced
In somber tone
And the cleanup has begun
You have only killed a man
When the sound of my voice
Sits unrecognizable
Long since departed the ears of my loved ones
You have only killed a man
When my words are found
Scribbled on napkins and papers stuffed in notebooks
And new eyes see your shame
You have only killed a man
When you’re forgotten
Turned to dust
An empty page in the books of history
You have only killed a man
When the lovers smile
And share my words
That this world is beautiful and mean
Wondering about my life
The drink, the inamorata
Revolutions lead and followed
The accounts left for generations
To follow in my unlikely path
My name on their future tongues
Jubilant in my grave
You have only killed a man
Stephen M Crow 2019
Puppet
Love in the Age of Enlightenment
The Murderer Inside
I’m drowning in your love
My resistance has grown thin
I’m sinking down below
Below this ocean made of sin
I’m searching for some wings
To catch a breeze lift off and fly
To look down at the world from the perspective
Of a teardrop in your eye
The cynic in me knows
That nothing good can come from this
The numbers don’t add up
And there’s a knife behind the bliss
The poet in me says
That tragedy can write a song
But the murderer inside knows that blood
is the only way to right this wrong.
-Stephen M Crow
Without You, My Dear
I'm beginning to think
that I'm unlovable.
I carry all of the traits
of wanting to be loved.
I love.
Deeply.
I invite these hearts...
openly
blindly
based upon things like
music
film
my blind ideals.
I'll never profess
to be a perfect man.
I'm as shitty as the bum
eyeing your final drink.
But I care
in the way the lion
cares for the antelope.
Without you,
my dear,
I'm nothing.
-Stephen M Crow